My mind is racing with issues at hand. The kids are cooped up from the cold rainy weather outside and I am trying to keep it together while my husband is busily working out of town.
Quarterlies are due for our business so statements have to be turned in and when a bank is having trouble sending a simple print out it makes it even more difficult. Emails are sent back and forth from the accountant, bills have to be paid, automatic payments set up and papers turned in. Owning your own business is not fun. It use to be worth it but due to all the changes and laws, it just isn’t anymore. That ‘can do american spirit’ is slowly being washed away and it is a very sad sight to see.
I tired to do school with a hyper toddler and only got one school book done before he wanted to make his own rules and scribble all over the page. He needed to physically do something so we pulled out the baking stuff and made some chocolate Halloween cupcakes that we will also be frosting later. That seemed to help get him back on track. We will approach the other school books later.
The littlest one is busy dropping legos around the house for me to step on, along with Tupperware lids that act like a cartoon banana peel. Thank you baby Eli.
Not only am I busy with all that but my insurance called to tell me they haven’t received their payment in the mail. She wanted to let me know because our bills are never late. I freaked out a little. I sent that bill out a week ago and if its not there by now, where the hell is it? I will be watching my account closely all the while hoping and praying that I don’t have to put a stop payment on it along with the other two checks I sent out with it.
This has been a trying month but I will not let it get me down. I push forward and press on asking God for his patients and wisdom while dealing with these matters. I also look to better days knowing it will not always be this stress filled.
Its easy to get weighed down. It is so easy to get overwhelmed. But it is just as easy to pray. To ask God for a reassuring peace. When I find myself in the midst of all this turmoil I go to God. I find instant relief from the pressures of life. It is a constant battle to give it to God and let it go but I cant/don’t want to carry it myself.
I am tired. I am wondering how it is all going to work out.
I keep telling myself to tackle one thing at a time. Keep doing something and soon it will all get done. I wont give up. I am not that kind of person. I will press on through the tears if I have to but I will not quit.
31 What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who is against us? 32 He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him over for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things? 33 Who will bring a charge against God’s elect? God is the one who justifies; 34 Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36 Just as it is written “For your sake we are being put to death all day long; we were considered as sheep to be slaughtered.” 37 But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:31-39